Ok Ok ok

My niece seems to say, "Ok ok Ok" alot. Normally, her body language is saying that's enough! No more for me thanks. No matter where I go I seem to hear her little voice saying "Marce" or "Is that better?" I am ok when I remember that I am not the one in control of the this big world. And it is better once I realize that the burden was never mine to begin with. One day I was flying to see a friend, aboard the flight I wrote these words:

Babies crying, people coughing
regenerated air
overhearing multiple conversations
Of casual laughter and seemingly concern
Am I losing oxygen before take-off?
Thinking in slow mo
a little tired, a lil hungry
Thank you for these hours alone with you Lord
Lost in the crowd - I know deep down
You are right here with me...
In this almost crash landing.

There is alot going on in this busy world. It is a real task to not allow yourself to be sucked into the everyday distractions around you. Sometimes people get lost in routine and do not even realize that time is sifting away. It does not matter what you choose to do whether it is stay at home or travel. If one is not mindful of it, they can do the same things out of habbit anywhere they are. The times when I am most attentive and comforted is when I am talking to God and reading His word.

SONG IN THE STAIRWELL

I WILL SEEK YOUR FACE AS LONG AS I HAVE BREATH
I WILL NOT LOVE MY LIFE UNTO DEATH
IN EVERY PLACE I WILL LIVE YOUR WORD OUT
LOVE. THANKS. PRAISE.
DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO LORD.

COME LET YOUR LOVE LIVE HERE
OVERCOME THE DARKNESS DRIVE OUT ALL FEAR
RESCUE YOUR LITTLE ONES.
FOR NOT ONE WILL BE LOST WHO KNOWS YOU.
DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO LORD.

LET MY LIFE FEED THE POOR
MY MOUTH SPEAK YOUR NAME OH LORD
LET EVERYTHING I DO BE JUST FOR YOU
AND MY LIFE BE THE LIVING PROOF
DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO LORD.

ATTITUDE

Interesting how life can take on a whole new meaning depending on your attitude. I have been noticing lately how subtly I can be doing something with my family, and how easy it is to let attitudes go unchecked or get the feeling of wanting to blame someone for something when circumstances are somewhat undesirable.

According to God's word we are to "have an attitude that of Jesus Christ." The only way we are going to do that is if we are "studying to show ourselves approved of God," and "being renewed in the spirit of our minds."

HELP

O Lord, you are quieting me and sending help from your sanctuary. I will hope in You alone.

OFF ROAD

For the last two months I have been at home visiting with my family. I have had a few times now that I have felt almost dizzy for the busy-ness and exhaustion that comes from juggling so many different circumstances in a day. Then the days pile up. I have noticed that lack of prayer can cause a state of confusion to come on strong. Focusing on what I feel or see invites delusion and self pity. I have learned alot. It might take me a while to share it all before Jesus comes. I will attempt to do so, at least in bits and pieces.

Please join me in praying for my family, especially my brothers and my mom. And though this might sound like a silly prayer request - please pray that I will pray. God's will be done, His name be glorfied to the ends of the earth.

TRUE LOVER

A lover loves that's just what a lover does
A lover loves through and through
A lover leads deeper into love by every way that is true
A lover lays down His life
A lover comes for His Bride
And continually gives his all and nothing less
He never tires of the fight
He ever lives to make intercession and to bless...

"AND ABOVE ALL THESE THINGS PUT ON LOVE, WHICH IS THE BOND OF PERFECTNESS."
Colossians 3:14

CRICKET CHOIR

It is 4am and I am listening to the cricket choir now in session as I sit in this cool night air. Morning is almost here. My eyes have yet to close, my mind has thought upon a great many things I suppose. Mostly just waiting...

How thankful I am to have showered and received such grace to forget my mistakes. To be able to sit outside through the watches of the night, and look forward to meeting a new day. Thank You My Father for Your love.