SUMMER SUN

Lots and lots going on. Life seems so crazy sometimes. Mom died and now I am married. Everything happens so fast. I am thankful. Thankful that I am here (near my family) and abiding in the Vine. Looking forward to new life, each day with Dylan, and struggling through the diversity of major changes so close together (the chapters turn and the pages fade) wading through memories of hardships, sufferings, and precious moments with Mom.

A whole lot of quiet going on inside me these days. Starting the season of grieving and as always throughout my life... I find somewhere to sit in the sun and reflect - even if it's just for a few minutes. The summer sun melts away the sadness and I am able to face reality one tear drop at a time. I have gotten a phone call here and there or a card at just the right time from a friend or some of my friend's moms. It really does help.

BEAUTIFUL

My Mom finished the race early friday morning. Appreciate all the prayers and support throughout the last year. The Lord has comforted my heart in reminding me of the head-on collision two years ago. If I would have passed then ... there was no pain, no sting in death. Yahweh is merciful.  He holds us in life and in death.

We do not sorrow as this world sorrows who has no hope. WE HOPE NOW IN HIM who is our eternal life and everlasting strength. IN HIS PRESENCE IS FULLNESS OF JOY and PLEASURES FOREVERMORE.

All six of Mom's children rise up and call her BLESSED. She taught us to call on Jesus and that He will never forsake us. We cling to His unfailing Word and continue to seek the Lord thanking Him for all the days of this brief journey, and we'll ever be looking upward.  He alone will wipe away every tear from our eyes and split the eastern sky and we will one day be rejoicing together again...at the marriage supper of the Lamb.

JOY THROUGH PAIN

Dylan is coming and I am so excited!!

Mom has been having moments of wondering where she's at and what all has happened. She still manages to make us all laugh. She told Michele and I that we are on a mini-vacation :) Michele and I couldn't believe she was reading our minds.

It is amazing how much peace you can have in the midst of such a storm when the PRINCE OF PEACE is on your side (in the boat with you). 

THINGS HOPED FOR

Hard last couple of weeks. Rough last few days. Traumatic day yesterday. I'll spare you most of the details for now. Mom slept good last night. This morning her arms are swollen and they are going to have to put a pick line in for IV fluids and meds. Her blood pressures up again. Her breathing sounds horrible. The Dr came in this morning at 7am told her that the cancer had matastised in the brain. He's giving her 3% sodium saline in attempts of drawing fluid away from the brain. Depending on how she does today he said he might send her home tomorrow.

I am fully persuaded that JESUS IS OUR HEALER and that the whole world is upheld by the Word of His power. I will fix my eyes on Him and rest my all against His chest, that includes My Mom. So thankful for your continued prayers and love for me and my family. HE IS FAITHFUL WHO PROMISED and HE WILL BRING IT TO COMPLETION.

HOPE NOW IN HIM

Appreciate more prayers for Mom and all of my siblings. Mom's passing through a really difficult time of some intense amounts of pain. She has not really been wanting to get out of bed at all, except to use the restroom. Eating almost nothing at all other than a few bites of watered down soup (maybe), and she's drinking some sips of water and a juice box.

The Lord is faithful in adversity. He alone is our ever present help in times of trouble. We will look to Him and be saved, delivered, set free, and radiant...our faces never covered with shame. I will hope now in Him. Praise Him more and more!

WEDDING CELEBRATION

June 11 is the wedding day! If you have not received an invitation and would like to join the celebration please contact me.  

MET ME THIS MORNING

The other day had a confession/conversation with one of my sisters about seeking the Lord as I should. She encouraged me to once again wake early and let nothing steal the gift of meeting with the Lord in the morning. Even if that means fasting sleep. Excuses try to take over our lives if we let them, keeping us from seeking His righteousness, and emptying our hearts of everything that is trying to weigh them down. I awoke at 4am this morning without an alarm THANKS BE TO GOD!

Started out giving thanks and then reading the scriptures aloud --- I have never been so awake! Prayed for so many that I have not prayed for in a while. I am so excited and thrilled for the love whose MERCY ENDURES FOREVER! I have been so exhausted from the ups and downs that seem to never stop coming, and I am so thankful for those who have encouraged me to press in and press on. Much is ours in Christ if we will just look unto Jesus. Thanks for praying for me.